What I think

Then I am going to describe the day of the festival (Niigata-Sou-Odori). We had performed many places through 2 days. All stage we made performance were on roads, which was blockaded by the police. On the pavements there were lots of audiences. That made me so excited. If we lived ordinal life, there would not be such a scene as we are watched by so many people. Therefore, it was rare experiences for me. However, it was not only amusement I had, but some difficulties. It was concern about my imperfect dance. Because I had not had enough time to practice what I was taught many times, I had fear of making mistake in the festival. Of course, the anxiety was remained in the very day of the festival. Though there was the fear that my making mistakes itself, the biggest concern I had was the influence of my mistake in our team-performance. I thought that If I did something wrong in the performance, it would make the whole performance less moved. Yes, I felt like going away from dancing because of the so big nervous!


The fact is that after I started to dance to music, I could dance without fearful thought as I had had before. I was excited, really excited. It was so impressive experience, dancing with my company in front of lots of audience. In the middle of the performance, I almost cry. It was because I was moved so much, perhaps.

Then I thought one thing. Unless I go through troubles and making efforts in order to get over the troubles, I can’t make myself moved, I thought strongly.

I was not likely to cry for movement or gladness so far. Especially, by the school festival in my high school I have not cried for joy. I had tendency of cutting corners in many field, especially club activity. Now I think it was so natural if I didn’t try toward those things in earnest, I have not experienced great joy such as it would make me cry. It is a bit regrettable for me. Accordingly, in my life in university I want to try everything seriously! And I’d like to cry for joy many times!

Niigata was urban! It was unexpected. I thought Niigata is countryside and there would be many field and not buildings. However around Niigata station, where we made performance, were there so many buildings and few fields. I was surprised.

After coming back from Niigata, I got my passport for the first time! Because I have not been to any foreign countries in my life, I didn’t need to make it at all. However, I decided to participate in the English learning course in New Zealand in spring vacation. It will be my first visit abroad. I am looking forward to it so much! I don’t like my photo on my passport, though. It cannot help.

And last part of the summer vacation, my friend Yuka visited my home. She stayed my house a day and we have a lot of chat through night. It was so fun. She told me that she got to like the nature in Yamanashi and she wanted to visit once more. I was glad to hear that. It is very nice that someone likes what I like. I love my hometown, so I want many people like it, too.

I had a wonderful summer vacation, but I had some wrong problem. I have relax time too enough and didn’t work very much, and study. That is what I have to reflect on myself. And I thought I had to read some book in the vacation. Therefore, I read books in these days. It is written in Japanese. The reason read Japanese novel is simply I am a Japanese. Because I belong to English Literature Department in University, I have many chances to read books written in English. However, I thought it is strange that I read only books written in English and research it. I wanted to read books written in my mother tongue and know the good point of books in Japan, as same as we does in University. Now I have read some books, and that made me so interested. I think I could find interest in Japanese book. I will continue to read books from now on. I’d like to read a book about Japanese history next.